Justin Bradley Lindley

It is here, the actual minute has passed and I have again survived.  This year both your siblings seem to have taken this harder than ever before.  We all miss you so very much.  Even little Rylee who only knows you through us said "I wish Uncle Justin was here so we could play together".  This year I have managed to move forward on some things.  I had your clothes made into quilts for your siblings and your children, I had to have one too, of course.  Makes us feel closer to you.  Also had each of your children a bear made out of your clothes, Rylee cried and wanted one too so of course she has one too.
In the middle of each thing is a heart made out of the one tie dye shirt I had that says Justin always in our heart.  It was a good move, even though I nearly had a panic attack leaving all your clothes with someone else to take care of, sounds crazy I know but can't help it.

Today has been so hard, filled with lasts.  I sit here tonight, tears flowing.  My heart and my chest actually hurt, not just emotionally but physically.  How in the world am I supposed to live through this.  My head knows you are happy but my heart misses you so much. 

I love you more than my own life Justin.  I would have gladly taken your place . . . . .